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  • 25th December
    2011
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    2011
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  • 11th December
    2011
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It is unusual for me to dream about my bias Lee Sungmin,.I don’t know, maybe he doesn’t really want to enter my dreamland,.until, this day… (around Dec. 10 or 11) I don’t know the exact day and tym, hey, I’m sleeping,.how would I?keke
but that dream is so clear to me, so clear that I can still remember every bit of it.
so here it goes….

In my dream, I was in a carousel with another guy who was beside me holding my hand so that I won’t fall while the ride is moving. We were both happy and laughing all the time. Suddenly, I saw Sungmin juz standing right in front of the carousel, smiling at me. When that happened, the carousel disappeared and so as the guy. I saw Ming still standing, so I approached him. 
I was so happy upon seeing him ’ coz u know..I love him.
…I said hi to him but he didn’t replied instead he grabbed my hand and brought me under a cherry blossom tree. On the tree, I saw a carved drawing of a broken heart and promise, it felt so unusual, as if something not right will happen.  
At first, we were juz standing there, not talking, not doing anything, NOTHING. So I did the first move…I punch his chest while saying “Hey speak up!”
the he talked and we talked…
(our conversation, as far as I can remember)
Ming: U look so happy back there (smiling)
Me: Yah, ‘coz I saw you
Ming: really?
Me: Of course, u know I love you 
Ming: I know, and I thank you for loving me but i want u to end it up?
Me: End wat??
Ming: You loving me, ‘coz I know behind those smiles and that smile I see from u ryt now, is a sad heart that I know for a fact, I had given u a long tym now… 
and it hurts me. I don’t want u to cry for me so stop loving me now.
Me: How can you say that?? and how am I suppose to that?? No, I won’t! and that’s final!
Ming: (he hugged me while saying this words) WHEN WE SEE EACH OTHER AGAIN, AND I’M PRETTY SURE IT WILL HAPPEN, I WANNA SEE YOU SMILING OR HAPPY NOT BECAUSE YOU SAW ME, THE GUY YOU LOVE, BUT BECAUSE YOU ARE JUST HAPPY. But u know, when we meet again, I want u to say those sweet words for me, for the last time. ‘Coz u know, somehow, it makes me feel lucky and so loved.

….I can’t say a thing anymore. He saw my tearing eyes and wiped it with his hands while still smiling at me. He said this again, “I want u to b happy” and he juz disappeared.The Cherry blossom tree was gone and I’m in a room filled with Ming’s pics from his musical, and wtf?? SS3 and SUKIRA and I’m sitting in front of a projected cartoon movie ( a dog chasing a cat) and at the end of the movie, this one word appeared SARANGHAE…
and so I cried again… when I opened my eyes after crying, all I can see now is white background and a fountain in front of me….and then I woke up (THE END)

I wasn’t able to get up after that dream and I just cried.
I really don’t know what does that mean.
I don’t know why Sungmin is asking me not to love him anymore.
I can’t do what he’s asking me. It is too much. 
How can I stop loving the person who is the reason of my happiness, who makes me feel alive and inspired all the time.
By this time, I’m still thinking about that dream and it makes me sad :( 

  • 21st November
    2011
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    2011
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  • 6th November
    2011
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  • 6th November
    2011
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  • 5th November
    2011
  • 05

captaincho:

2,190 days / 312 weeks / 72 months / 13 men / 6 years / 5 albums / 4 subgroups / 3 successful concert tours / 1 fandom / 1 group / 1 family

It still feels like yesterday since I became a fan, and it feels like just a few moments earlier since I consider myself as an everlasting friend. But no, everything happened years ago. My life changed since I became their fan, then the story goes on~

Exactly 6 years ago (November 6, 2005), 12 simple boys who once dream of being a star were able to perform on stage for the 1st time. It’s was never just an ordinary day, it was one of the most memorable ones and will always be. A few months after, another boy who has the same dream was added to the group and the group proved that number 13 was not bad at all.

Fans were able to watch you grow - from individuals who have the biggest dreams to the men who shines as the brightest stars on stage. It was never a smooth flowing journey, in fact we’ve been through a lot of obstacles. But it doesn’t stop there, instead of turning back, we held hands and move forward as one. 

Life as a Super Junior fan was painful, it was tragic, but being in this fandom is one of the few things I will never regret for the rest of my life. Everything we’ve shared together - tears, time, love, trust and dreams - will forever stay in my heart, treasured as one of the best experience I had during the span of my existence. All the memories we had, all of the ups and downs we’ve been through, all the tears we shed together, these are just proofs that we are indeed one of the best fandoms ever. For the bravest boys we love the most, we are indeed one of the strongest fandoms. I am forever grateful and proud of Super Junior, and to my fandom as well.

So for the boys we value the most, congratulations and happy 6th year anniversary! 6 years was indeed a very long journey, and ELF will surely be with you for another 6 years, and even more than that. No matter what path you guys choose to take years from today - to be an actor, model, DJ, MC, solo artist, etc. - we will support you and love you no matter what. ELF doesn’t just love Super Junior as a group, we love each and everyone of you individually and we will respect your decisions in life.

Good luck for the upcoming years, Super Junior! Never stop inspiring thousands of people around the world. You are not just the brightest stars on stage, you exceptionally change people’s lives who believe in your capabilities. We are very proud of you guys! Continue being one of the best groups out there and ELF will always be behind you, supporting, protecting and loving you.

Thank you for these 6 wonderful years, Super Junior. Park Jungsoo, Kim Heechul, Han Geng, Kim Jongwoon, Kim Youngwoon, Shin Donghee, Lee Sungmin, Lee Hyukjae, Lee Donghae, Choi Siwon, Kim Ryeowook, Kim Kibum, Cho Kyuhyun, with Zhou Mi and Henry Lau, we are forever grateful and thankful for the beautiful days we’ve shared together. Let us share more days together, shall we? We love you so much ~ ♡ 

(via hey-tin)

  • 5th November
    2011
  • 05

Short but sweet…

I love Super Junior!!!!

I don’t know how many times did I already said this words but I won’t get tired of saying those over and over again.

Super Junior, happy 6th anniversary!!!
Thank you for coming into my life.
You made me extra happy, extra crazy and uber in love.
Thanks for being one of my inspiration.

I WILL FOREVER LOVE YOU no matter what will happen in the future.

SARANGHAE MY OPPAS!!!!!!!! :D

 

  • 5th November
    2011
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